Review: What Am I Going To Do Without You? Patt Kelley

Published On October 31, 2012 | By Richard Bruton | Comics, Reviews

What Am I Going to Do Without You?

Patt Kelley

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It begins as it ends: with a dinosaur. It’s hard to dislike a book that uses a dinosaur as a metaphor. You can’t call Kelley out on using such an obvious ploy, because well, it’s a dinosaur. It is, as a character in the book helpfully points out, difficult not to be fascinated by the mysterious, gigantic, lumbering animals who roamed the Earth before us. The dinosaur in question, a brontosaurus (or apatosaurus), is discovered in a park by a group of children, lying on its side. It dies soon after. Its death is arbitrary; its existence instead a reminder of something great and wonderful which had been thought lost. The magic the creature represent, inspires a new-found belief and wonder, a new sense of possibility: what else is real, makes everything appear a little more special, allowance to believe in the fantastical, dragons, fairies, unicorns-perhaps even in goodness.

What Am I Going To Do Without You (which will hitherto be referred to as WAIGTDWY as it’s a bloody long title) follows three women: a teenage goth girl who sassily fends off taunts from her peers with choice hand gestures and words while her parents worry about her strangeness and possible evil,  a young woman settling in a new city with her dog of indeterminate origin, and an elderly lady accompanying her husband to the hospital for tests, the two joshing and bickering comfortably. All three are faced with challenges and all deal with them in ways that are different, yet always positive and empowering:Jeanie- smart, brave and unbowed by bullies, Katrina, who sees wonder in small things and Flo who is resolute and strong in the face of horrible tragedy.  I don’t think its pushing too much to say there’s a strong feminist reading here.

Kelley creates a world that is made beautiful by the surprising and unexpected intervening in the everyday; even an asteroid shower is strangely mesmeric and lovely. It’s a pleasure to read something that manages to be simultaneously reflective, believable and not depressing. His narrative threads are suffused with a rolling tart humour: particularly Flo and Murray’s banter and an incident involving Jeanie, her teacher, and her parents  that begins with rumour and conjecture  and rapidly spirals into accusation and  misunderstanding,  that’s both sad and hilarious in the acuteness of its observation. It is Flo’s journey, however, which is the fulcrum of WAIGTDWY, not only in terms of time, but the emotional spectrum she traverses: anger, disbelief, then dazed acceptance, emptiness, bereft of meaning, and eventually an awkward routine and gradual peace. It is in Flo’s story that Kelley delivers a quiet, true triumph of comics storytelling; firstly with words and then solely with pictures.

The overarching feel and message of the book is a positive one, and there’s one of those idioms/quotes that instantly came to mind after having read WAIGTDW- ‘life is uncertain, eat dessert first.’  As a people, we are quick to shoot down messages of positivity- embarrassed by their show of heart and earnestness. Make the most of the time you have, utilise even the smallest moment, appreciate the people you care about, those you don’t: all these messages which have become so overused that their meaning has faded, watered down and lost, so that they appear bombastic in  cliched triteness.  Kelley, as an artist, and a good one, makes  you feel the relevance and importance of that message. It is good to be reminded.

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About The Author

Richard Bruton
- Started in comics retail aged 16 at Nostalgia & Comics, Birmingham. Now located in Yorkshire, he's written for the Forbidden Planet International Blog since 2007. Specialising in UK Comics and All-Ages comics, Richard's day job in a primary school allowed him to build the best children's graphic novel library in the country.

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